I’ve been going out with a woman for the last few weeks. As we were talking today I tried to explain what I’m looking for and it just kind of flowed out. I’m putting it here so I don’t forget.
I want what my parents have. I want to walk through the mall at 70 and still love the person i’m with while holding their hand. I want someone that I’m not afraid to open up to. Someone I can tell my secrets to and not be afraid they’ll be used against me. I want someone who wants to make me feel happy as much as I do them. I want someone who every once in awhile goes wild and colors outside the lines. I want someone who is sensual. I want someone that drives me wild. I want someone who makes me want to be a better person. I want someone who knows sometimes you need to break the rules to test your world views. I want someone who likes playful bites. I want someone that doesn’t make it feel forced and everything feels natural. I want someone who can hear the darkness call and ignore the urge to run into the night like your hair is on fire unless you both are up for the adventure. I want someone to touch my soul. I want someone that I don’t feel like I have to always take care of. I want someone that won’t lie to me even if they think that’s what they think I want to hear. I want someone who can balance me. I want Yin and Yang. I want someone who understands sometimes you have to go to the park and swing on the swings or jump on the trampoline and be a kid for awhile to remind you of why your an adult. I want someone who likes to take long showers together and just stare into each others eyes as your souls entwine. I want someone who I get excited about just thinking of their wonderful smile and bedroom eyes. I want someone who’s eyes are mood rings so i have an early warning system. I want someone who’s only crazy on the weekends not 24/7. I want someone who understands humanity and the need to blend into it but who also understands that standing on the outside can be fun and entertaining. I want someone who when they are with me in public I’m not always dreading what they might say. I want a 50s style tv show family life with a mixture of CSI/Ghost Hunters/Nova/Law an Order/Some Scifi mixed together. I want Judy home maker in the kitchen and a porn star in the bedroom.
I want all these things and more.