I know you hate being called kitten. You would rather be called Kat or even demon spawn. But you will always be my kitten but I will try not to embarase you to much. Which of course is why I’m going to post this for the world to read. I know I’m not always going to be around to take care of you but I’m trying to stay healthy to be here as long as I can. But I also wanted you to have something you could always look back on and go that was my dad.
Did you know that every night that your asleep before me I still check on you to make sure your ok? Some nights I have to walk in and make sure your breathing because I don’t know what I would do without you. You were my first blood relation and my only child. I have to take care of you.
Yes its my fault you have your warped personality because I stood over your crib with a batman action figure telling you how great he was and how bad barney could be. But I doubt you would want it any other way.
I know I haven’t been the best parent. No where near what I wanted to be. But I am working on it kitten. I want you to be able to come to me and tell me whatever is on your mind. I want you to be happy. I want you to find work you enjoy. I want you to have friends you can trust. I don’t want you to feel like you have to be an outsider all your life, I’ve tried living like that and its very lonely. I want something better for you. I want to hear you laugh more. I don’t want you to feel like you have to walk on eggshells or be afraid.
Yes I get mad at times. Most of the time its because I believe in you! I fully believe that if I tell you I’m short on time and you need to hurry while I get gas that you know what needs to happen. I trust you to make good decisions. You shouldn’t have to wait on me to tell you that yes you can get a soda and a bag of chips with your hot dog. Your my kid. I know your going to get 2 hot dogs with cheese, a 52 oz drink and a bag of chips. If there is a problem with that I’ll tell you before hand. You make good decisions you don’t have to wait on me.
Your going to be ok kitten. I will always be here for you no matter what. Just breath and we’ll get through it. Nothing is as bad as our minds make us think.
Love ya to infinity + 1